when I feel confused or frustrated ....

Some time I have feeling than anyone can't understand me!
It can be one time per month :D or just cultural difference or some challenges.
what I usually do:
* Buying something nice for myself (not exactly shopping, I'm tired from it)
* Sleeping!!! (what I really miss, and I don't know at which weekend I can have a sleep it)
* Talking with friends whom I haven't seen long time (sometimes even they think on other way)
* Reading, but something what I can easily forgot later
* Meeting with people out of AIESEC (can do almost every day)
* Singing, Dancing and Smiling of course. (No comments :)

Today I'm going to clean flat, to cook some salad, to dance and to think, to think and to think! I should come to some ideas definitely!!! I'm really frustrated about my feeling... Why it can be simple? :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-onqH1nPfqY&feature=PlayList&p=AE147C51128B9B39&index=8

This is song helped me removed in previous week :)

The week of special moments

I have been in Berlin on last weekend. I asked myself "how can I describe my trip in Berlin?"
I don't know do I like Berlin or not, this is a city which everyone should visit advisable! :) I guess better during Summer or Autumn, because Berlin has many parks and if you want to see the natural beauty of German's capital for sure that seasons are perfect for. I've been glad to meet some of my friends! I've been so satisfied that Lars and Anda cared about our sightseeing program, because as usually I haven't had time before to read a lot about Berlin, and all my preparation was in a plane from Tallinn to Berlin :) That city has a so huge city center, it's not possible just for one day just walk around. But we could manage to visit the more popular places :)

what I really couldn't accept personally it was "dirty feeling". I try to explain, what I mean, Berlin is city with a lot of graphites some of them looks like very attractive! but we used the city train and our trip took around or 30 min and I could see not just city center and other districts of city as well. In my memory it's graphites, some deserted places or factories. On Saturday evening we went home quite late and we meet on a train station a lot of young people, some of them were punk, some of the were just drank, some of them were just wired at least for me. That all gave me a "dirty" feeling. Although may be I'm just sensitive sometimes :)

But on a train we didn't lost time and always we were enjoying the conversation :) I may say some of our topics was unforeseen and unexpectable , but exciting for sure! I know that I'd like to come back in Berlin some day but in September or October :) I'd like to visit museums, which a lot of in Berlin, I'd like to know the social life, because in Berlin usually happens a lot of different events.

Some other moments which happened during last few days, that I discover I have one more friend :) This happens when you tell truth to person next to you. You're respect his/her opinion, his/her feeling and you're going to be more closer, because you know almost everything about each other!:) I've been thinking that I'm almost alone who prefer tell truth openly and sometimes I started to afraid doing it, but now I'm again so convince about that strengths :)

Strange meeting on a fly! I don't know how ofter do you get to know your neighbors in plane, somehow it always happens with me, even if I sleep or read or listen music :) on a way back to Tallinn, I met a middle-aged women, she was so open with kind smile and I felt that she wanted to talk to me, so latter everything moved in so interesting direction. She works in German audit company which has focus on NGO and she provide audit, education and training for finance responsible in NGO. We had dinner and did sightseeing in Tallinn, it was a please to talk to her about professional and personal topics. You know, sometimes you meet people and feel so freely to discuss almost everything, I like this feeling!!! I don't know how that recently meeting will influent on my life in future, but I have some new thought in my mind at that moment for sure...

my mind is changing ...

I don't know how it's call correctly, but I can feel it. May be some of you know this feeling. I can compeer with cooking or swimming or ...
When you cook something really special, probably firstly and you don't know the taste, but for sure it'll be really delicious. You're tasting few times & it's a new taste always, because you added spicy or some new ingredient or just food is going to be ready.
Or when you learn swimming, it's difficult in the begging, but latter it's better and better, and you can swim even butterfly. And you just swim and enjoy the beautiful nature of see, the fabulous voice of ocean and the wonderful pictures of seabed.
I need time to think about the way I personal changed.
I need time again to review what is really important for me.
But anywhere I like this feeling, I see how challenges developing me. I like to observe this moment as well :)
And what I really appreciate that I'm enjoying all this changing now

Life is short,
Break the rules,
Forgive quickly,
Kiss slowly,
Love truly,
Laugh uncontrollably,
And never regret anything that made you smile.