Drive your life!

mix....

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Sun, 08 Nov 2009 18:04:00 +0000

I feel like writing....
may be it will help to sort out all my thought...feeling...wishes....dreams...and take me to the next stage, where I am be happy, fully enjoying the life and make a contribution :)

Did I mention, that I love my life? :) I LOVE LIFE!
I love everything what is happening, I like to make my life, I love all my challenges, I love people around, I am pleased to share my thoughts, ideas, feelings, energy etc I try to make my life and follow my dreams...but often people in some point stop to make there life and follow the rules, society, management etc...sometimes I feel that I do the same, then suddenly I wake up, because I feel something badgering me insight!!! Thanks Got, I have curiosity :)

I'm finishing my internship in 3 weeks, I thought I would know for sure that is next and I have expected that my life will follow some typical logic, expected steps, at list will start since now :)but would I be happy to know everything in advance??? :) ha ha :) Looking on my past I defiantly must admit I've been always taking challenging roads, made not easy decision and took some risky steps. I have never regret for that, moreover I am even very grateful for all things which happened or didn't happened.
So far I am following the strategy know the direction, follow your instinct, make the best of everything, share your happinesses and things just start happening! I don't want to be attach to the result or place even try don't be attach people (not easy). So far I feel confided and happy about it.

I guess now I am a bit frustrated, because for 5 month actively searching for my next step I still confused about my wishes or goals for next year....not years... just for one year! I tend to think to much sometimes :) asking myself to much questions etc, what is not bad, I have to just accepted it :) I like that I am not distracted by rejection or non result achievement, I know it will come, it's a mater of time. I am lost between roads...
I'm lost where to go, what do I really LOVE to do, should I follow my heard or my mind, logic or long-term strategy...but at list I know what I don't want to do :)))

Place:
The World is to small and I wish to leave in each continent during next 4-5 years... I'm willing to go and to try, to see, to learn, to travel, to discover, to explore, to share and wish to make the difference! Wish to find the way how I can use my strength, knowledge and ability to do something relevant and to make others happy.

Do what you love to do:
Fully believe that if we do what we are really good at, what we love to do, the world/population will be much happy and more kind! I know things which I can do and I can successes! But I want to wake up happy in the morning, because I'm going to do an amazing job everyday, job which make the difference, not just average job which I can do...I wish to find or always be able to discover new things and to be very satisfied with things which I do everyday, stretch myself for the best and enjoy it.
I wish to be happy coming back home, because I have my close people at home (partner, children) who are waiting for me. Wish to share my love, energy, thought with them.

I guess everyone want/wish to have love, but often people don't like to tell it, to express it, to share. In our days sometimes we're hyper active, too social, but quite lonely on the same time, especially in megalopolises. Quantity would never cover the quality. We prefer to share our achievement in business life and forgot to mention, that the best moment of the day actually was 5 min conversation with the partner, children or parents :) It's probably easy don't share anything personal you kind of keep cool and pretend that you don't need it, but everybody needs it :) Everyone needs it, doesn't mater the gender, race, age, culture, preferences, sexual orientation etc, we need just face it.

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Find balance:
when you mind, heard and soul tell you 3 different things, any meditation can't help :)
should I go for money and accept a job offer...should I follow for the best experience and take a risk and go to Asia to explore...or should I follow my heard, probably take even bigger risk and take a challenge, but make sure that I make the best of my life...???...right now I even can't hear my intuition...I am too much questioning my self, I guess I should learn how to let it go :)
I've tried to look on that as a case, which need to be solved and present from different perspective :)

World wide view:
Where do I want to be, What do I want to do, how my life will look like in 10 - 20 -30 -40 year? How our world would look like in 20-50 years? Which role we are going to have in such busy and technology developed world? Which action we should make now to leave on a better planet latter? What is really mater?

Taking to consideration world issue like climate changes and Global warming, population grows and financial crisis, technology development and speed of our life I guess it's more and more difficult to predict the future. Some scientists said: "The word culaps will happen in 2029", calculation has been done base on speed of technology development and distraction of the planet. Some of the them predict the world end in 2012. I just feel it's more difficult to adapt to new technology, changes on every day life, a lot of information around and don't get crazy with all this things.
Without any concert action climate changes can bring so many destruction and catastrophe which will effect economic for sure. In competitive environment population which have had a chance study do that and focusing very much on a career, on the same time I guess gap between well educated and uneducated people is going to increase significantly. Personally thinking that education is one of the key to solve some issues or at list to help developed or performed poor country/regions.
From economical point of view we can see clear that for last 10 years all finance from US and most EU moved significantly to Asia. Now Asia plays a very big role as a world builder. Any developed country wouldn't let easily to share there finance, so I assume that politics and leaders of the country will spent a lot of energy and attention for protection or fighting for resources and territory.
I guess 3th sector (NGOs) can play a very big roll in new world. Social enterprising is one of the key to make a real difference! Personally I become more and more attractive to it. To be a leader, to really lead, you don't need a MBA in leadership, you can just do it. Thinking that a lot grows and development in poor and developing countries can be done by NGO and social projects, by inspiring people with right ideas and needs of education.
The gap between poor and rich people will increase (probably that tendency we can see always in our history as well), but managing is going to be not by police/army how it was before, but by technology or medicine (diseases, epidemics etc). The richest part will be more mobile, well study, well travel, well read, may be even partly supports there health by new technology. In such dynamic and stressful world people can become more and more machine. On the same time some people can't follow the standard, the creativity, outstanding ideas, brave personality would values very much. It has had never been easy to be special and find understanding from populace although it's one of the way to make changes. If it's so easy, then everyone can do it :)

Then I had part related to long-term goals, feelings, wishes etc... but
Reading my post since begging I have realized how it's important for me to write down, even may be not so logical or in order, but at list it's a good self-reflection moment. I got some inspiration back and I know that sometimes to be lost between roads is not bad :) just important to know the final destination and keep happy journey;)

Actually I like challenging moments, because it makes me stronger, it pushes me to thinking out, used all creativity and discover something new :)

You have to stretch yourself before you grow up, move to the next level! :)

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Thu, 22 Oct 2009 15:54:00 +0000

before your successed!

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Tue, 20 Oct 2009 18:25:00 +0000

Everyday I wake up and think how amazing life (even if I don't want to think like this...I still do it!) but if we have always luck and get everything immediately I guess life would be so boring! To make sure that we stretch ourselves, we do our best in everyday life we must to struggle!

I even think it's more important your attitude for difficulties for challenges, then the fact of having it. Can you imagine you don't have any problems/issues and everything is fine/great etc??? Believe me, you create them! :) humanity are enough complicated and like make problems/issues/difficulties from nothing :)I don't know anyone who can say, I don't have any problems and I'm happy on 100% with all arias in my life, do you know? if you think so, then you don't have room for improvements, so that is a circle ...:)

As you know I like sport very much and I guess I know how to achieve result in sport, because I've experienced it a lot. You must just practice every single day, without excuses like weekend, bad weather or I'm just tired. (in some point of my life I had just 3 days without sport and it was so boring for me, I missed it very much already).
today I watch such interesting /inspiring video which reminds me my sport achievement and feeling of success! but for such great feeling I was ready to work very hard every day, just for 1 min of glory, achievement, success :)

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I guess in life we should do the same :)
feeling inspiring, amazing, magnificently, specially to do my best from everything!

how does it work:

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Thu, 08 Oct 2009 08:46:00 +0000

Have you noticed, that the more you hurry, the slower you go?
The more you wait, the longer it takes?
The more you worry, the less you dream?
But the more you live, love, and laugh, Inna, the more you live, love, and laugh.

Weird?

but may be it's a beauty to figure it out and enjoy the moment :)

UUUUU vacation

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Mon, 06 Jul 2009 08:19:00 +0000

I have just came back from my vacation a couple of hours ago! It was no typical vacation, I call them “U vacation” (unpredictable difficult, unbelievable interesting and unexpected inspiring) I decided to take time for my self and I went for 10 days to Vipassana Meditation Camp in Belgium. I have had so many thought, impressions and a lot of energy, I have feeling I can reach Everest and hug all people in the world; defiantly I’ve recharged my mind.

How did I figure out about such thing, in Autumn 2007, I went for coffer with one Estonian friend and he asked me what I’m doing at Christmas, I had no particular plans yet, he recently asked me would I like to join him for meditation camp for 10 days. I’ve been confused; “10 days of meditation; 10 days of silence meditation; are you kidding?” I said. Viljio is a guy with good sense of humor and I really thought for awhile that he was joking, but he said: “Asked Marjam she went with me last year.” Late I had some conversation with Marjam, saw Siim’s inspiring video after his experience at meditation camp and already in the end of 2008 I decided that I’ll take one of this course for sure and I have done it:) I guess it’s a good an example the emergence of thought. Thank you guys, I’m really grateful to you for giving me that thought.

Vipassana is one of India’s most ancient meditation techniques. The word Vipassana means seeing things as they really are. It’s the process of self purification by self-observation. Simply you have to keep silence for 10 days, don’t make physical and eyes contacts with other student, men & women live separately; student lives by course timetable (wake up at 4a.m. and get to bed at 9.30p.m.) and you are aloud to talk just on special time to teach; student should fallow all rules and follow daily tasks; no books, no TV, internet, mobile, pen/pencil, no sport, nothing….just you and your mind!
I thought the most difficult would be keep silence, but actually it was the simplest part and at some point I started to enjoy it, the difficult part was to work with my brain. I guess I have never worked so hard 10 days on a roll by my mind. Mind is so talkative and it was the most hard to accept the present/reality like it is and to leave on the moment. Thought was flying from past to future from dreaming to planning from good to bad. It’s not possible to stop them, at least for such short time, it’s a really hard work to become really peaceful and happy; but I realized that work helps to eliminate/decrease level of unhappiness.
I’m happy person and I choose to be happy, but sometime life brings difficult moment, news, challenges and it’s hard sometimes to keep happiness, but I guess now I know how to accept the reality like it is ( at least on theoretical level). I hope I’ll see that on practice in real life as well :) “It’s a hard work, but you must try, before your succeed.” Our teacher always said that :)

My U lessons are:
•trust your intuition – To reach a meditation camp (venue) was not so easy, because it’s located on a middle of nowhere in Belgium, but I had to pass thought Holland before come to Belgium again :) My trip started with traveling by car with 3 random, whom I didn’t know at all, I had scared thought, but my soul was calm and as result I’ve been luck all my trip with busses, timelines and people who were just very helpful.

•everyone is beautiful just we have to see that beauty;

•believe in yourself – I knew that I can manage and I did, I have never thought that I can leave a meditation camp during that 10 days, because it was so painful to meditate or to difficult to work or something else, I simply I believe in myself and my goal. When we got permission to talk with other student on last day so many people said they wanted to leave a course on some point.

•never compeer yourself with other, because everyone has a different experience, interest, goals, level of ambition etc. stay unique and make your own history; I met so many interesting people, out of my usual social group. People who does art, clown, workers from retirement home, doctors, artists, entrepreneurial, composer, hick hiking girl and girl whom studies development system (I have never heard about such education, her specialization food development system in poor countries). Every of them had an interesting story to share, in some moment I’ve been imprested of the diversity of the word; but my story is an amazing one too and it’s my own story.

•don’t criticize yourself, just accept it. In some point then we disappoint or frustrated by ourselves, we struggle to be better, to make more or to achieve more. To struggle is good, but love your self enough to accept your strength and weaknesses; make most of them with enjoying of doing even mistakes, because it’s our best teachers. I guess that one of the hard lesson for me, however step by step I’m changing my attitude and become in love with that lesson.

•Just present is a reality. I guess that point and the next one the most difficult for me so far I haven’t really learn properly yet but I’m on a way :) I realized it more and more, I tend to think and accept the reality like it is, although it is easy to say then implements that lesson in real life.

•Love is one way traffic. I’m interested of positive physiology and happy attitude to the life. On some point of my life I became to point that love to other is a very good feeling; letter I realized that love yourself (don’t be selfish, please don’t get me wrong) it’s a way to show the love to others; keep happiness though making other happy; sound good, favour enough, doesn’t it?
During the course every evening we had an audio seminar and some of them are about love; when you just give and don’t expect anything back. I thought hm… I do that, I just love people and that is a good feeling. But later during deeper explanation and I got an idea that mostly we create unhappiness by ourselves. How doest it work? We unhappy when something doesn’t happened; why? Simply because we were expecting that it must happened or we have created that in our mind. I started to analyze that actually it happened with the most close people, family, relatives, best friends etc; we do expect something get back from them, always, we attached to them and our ego wants to have back love/attention etc. I feel that is the hardest lesson which will come just with trying. But I’m glad to realize it at least, I’m on right way.

P.S. finished post, talked to my parents and my father wants to subscribe for course in Ukraine in October, so happy to give them at least a change to try it!

Use your energy for 100%

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Fri, 22 May 2009 13:28:00 +0000

Today I'm having so special day, actually I guess it's more about special feeling!
I feel so good, let's try to describe. Happy, peaceful, lovely, natural, enjoyable and so relax, may be even just tired! I guess I would be strange to feel so good every single day otherwise I wouldn't appreciate it so much:)
Why do I feel like that I don't know :) I just feel.

Last month was quite full off activities, events, travelling and meeting new people!
I was in London for long weekend in the beginning of May, it was on of the bright trip so far. I loved my time in London! I don't know do I like actually London or not :) I guess I wouldn't like to live in LND, but I do appreciate my time in LND & thought I got there and after! It was very quality time. I couldn't manage to see all London, but I know that I want to study in London! I would say now it's a dream I haven't found exactly the program I don't have money yet, but I know that I want to study in London!

Olesya was in Bonn, with my friends from Sevastopol I always have fun in a special way :D every single day I've been enjoying with her!
Last weekend I met Alisa in Paris! I would say "doesn't matter how far away your friends and how often you talk/meet, but if you connected, it's forever!" I had feeling that we still in Estonia in our dormitory having brilliant porridge breakfast. She improved her cooking skills very much! :) We were having a nice chat; she still can read my mind very well :) I love it! My Estonian team we missed you!!!
But in Paris I had a couple of goals, accept visiting Alisa and doing sightseeing there. Olesya, Luka & Myself were having a small team reunion and celebrated Olesya's B'Day in Paris, it was like "Dreams come truth!" :)
As soon as you can dream about you can make it, Olesya just called me some day in January and asked: "Inna what do you think if I come to visit you in May and we later go to Paris to drink Champagne in the Champs-Élysées on my Birthday?" and it happened :) Of course we had a great party and went to night club!!! And it was one of the an amazing party ever :) I don't remember then I've been really dancing till 6a.m. on high hills, and during night I even didn't drink alcohol, I've been just dancing of course I had a good partner and nice company...it was awesome dancing night in Paris! :) after I couldn't move properly, but it's other story ;)
French people so interesting, there are not like other Europeans, there are different, very specific; honestly I have not got very good imprisons about them, but I hope I just don't know them enough, although Red French wine is extremely testy :)
I came back in Bonn without any energy:) totally sleepy, but with huge smile! :)
On Wednesday, Francisco (my flatmates) organized party in our place, I couldn't believe that so many people might come! It was 40-50 ppl, we had a queue next to enters!!! Some Germans just came and asked: "Is it Open Door Party?" it was very good chill out! Even Nadya with Anna & Yat Wan showed up for half a hour before going to Turkey :)
Yesterday I had lovely Thursday (official holiday in Germany) :) I just love yesterday, even I've been sad a bit to say bb to Olesya, but she had to come back in Kiev… later I went to Hofgarten with book for man and I couldn't stop reading, even in some point I've been cold, but I had so much fun! :) It's not a first time when I read a book specially for man, but it's always interesting to know the man perspective about women and sometimes I must say sometimes they knew us better when we do :) and Indian dinner with nice game completed such great day!

Today is Friday, almost empty office, nothing urgent, just learning day :) but I feel so good, even still didn't recover my energy from previous parties, events, trips, but I feel so special :)

But you know, time to time, when everything seems to be so perfect, it's just a right moment to move on to new adventures or you might have slept some important moment, I guess it's easy to say but not to do, that feeling just eating you and you want to stay on it, it's so comfortable, convention and lovely. But I should I must really do steps for the future!
Still don't know what I will do since 1st of December or 1st of January 2010! I'm on a process to found what I want to do, sometimes I feel that I'm just a dreamer :) but I hope I'll discover soon the right place for me!

I know I'll recover my battery soon and I would be ready for next step.
Suppose to have peaceful weekend for myself and for my future :)

Dream On!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Tue, 12 May 2009 10:04:00 +0000

“Close your ears to all adverse suggestions. Never mind if people call you a fool and a dreamer. Dream on.” ~ Wallace D. Wattles

I've been inspiring to DREAM!!! after reading some short motivation from PilosophicasNotes.
I really feel if we keep a discipline of dreaming (sound strange I know) but we really can make an amazing progress, make things which never even exists.
I do keep practising, I guess even more then I've been a chilled :)
For self motivation I started to remember when my dreams came truth….

The first biggest one, which I remember it was on Millennium New Year, when I got as a present my first PC from parents and I really didn't expect! It was just dream, even I wasn't so young 16 years old, but still I had internal feelings to believe that it will happened.
The second one was to get an award for Scientific activities and I got it, even I got on the last year at University, and I wasn't so happy anymore, but in the beginning of my study it was just a dream!!!
Since I joined AIESEC I would say I started to think more strategically and sometimes I couldn't separate my dreams from my plans (long-term or short-term goals), because they were always ambitions :)
But when I came to Estonia, during first weeks of my MC term I had a reflection time (when I couldn't got visa to Latvia and had to skip Baltic meeting) I had enough time for myself and recently one thought sound as a dream and I even couldn’t believe that it's possible. I wanted to work with investment management and to bring investments to Ukraine or Russia. I had no clue how I can do that, I even was not confident that I can make it but when you really dream your internal feelings work and you start to find everything regarding your dream. Sooner or later if you keep the direction it comes. I found that SME or they found me :) The third dream came truth I started to work in EXCEDEA (Excedea is a leading management and investment advisor in the Baltics and Eastern Europe.) I have to say that I liked it very much, first time in business sector I felt that I can use my finance/analytical knowledge for doing impact. I had very good team, trustful and open managers, who as a role model keep balance in live and achieve the result. We did our job as a hobby and always enjoyed it.
But I had other goal or dream (I don't know what was it exactly); I wanted to have an experience on multinational company as a result I'm now in DHL, doing my internship.
What is the next my dream???
After a lot of goal settings in AIESEC, I feel that I enjoy more reflection time. I try to find every week some hours for myself to listen myself and ask questions. One of the thought/answer which is often in my mind last 3 month is doing more impact using my finance knowledge, ability to work with people and analysing skills!
Investment aria still as an option, but I feel I want to see more, Emerging markets, development relationship between them and connect partners/companies/countries, bring an investment to them, show the direction of development and make people happy though there development. I'm not sure yet what it is… but I know it will come.

So happy to find a minute to write about my DREAM….

P.s. just red again my post and I noticed that a lot of thought are missing, such as human feelings (love, passion, respect, curiosity) may be it will come on latest post…:)

What do you think about?

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Thu, 07 May 2009 23:04:00 +0000

Some days ago I watch video on TED.COM something relevant of out brain and how does it work...The main message was how many % of your time to do you thing about something/someone really important for you? or what do you think about most time is really values for you or at least on that moment and we should keep attention on that and don't ignore. (lost the video link :)

I become curious what does pump in my mind?
what is the main topic for me? whom I become tomorrow? where am I going to be tomorrow? What is the my history story should be for tomorrow?
do I really think or just try to analyze situation/task/information/reality around?
do I really think about someone/something or just try to solved upcoming reality?
...
I came to some conclusions...
yes, often information/social stereotype just doesn't let us to use our brain for our-self on 100%, but we must manage it, at least try to do that.
Everything happened 2 times, first in your mind!!! I always believed on power of thoughts, but I guess we do not always use that power!Dreaming is a key to success of powerful thinking. I'm not sure can I dream :) I even started to smile when I asked myself do you dream or build plans for future? every single kid can dream it's for sure I suppose with age we just loosing that ability and as long as we can practicing of it we could keep out creativity and power of great thinking. I hope to keep practicing of dreaming.

I'm so glad that I'm curious person and I always have to have passion and ask myself different question... But our brain is a complex and important to ask RIGHT question, it's not easy, but always interesting.
Reading and meeting people are key for me to keep asking questions.
Now I suppose the main questions in my mind are:
How can I contribute to the world with my finance knowledge?
how to feel/keep LOVE all my life?

One of the thing which I learn in London after visiting the museum of Astronomy: "Keep Asking and you will find an answer"

We live in the world which we build in our mind!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Mon, 06 Apr 2009 15:24:00 +0000

Something I feel that we live in illusion world! As soon as you could protect you mind of negative news which you got everyday via TV, newspapers or internet, especially social network :)
As soon as you could accept every satiation which is going on it saved you and we could protect our mind and to build our own illusions, not be depending of information, new and presser which we got every single day. Something takes us away of our way of thinking, which is a trash for us. I guess I should be more careful with information which I read and search, especially in internet!
I discover if I can 100 % relax my mind, I can be the most creative and initiative person in the world, I have just “pink” pictures. I need just to practice how to do that.
One of the last examples. On last weekend I went to Frankfurt, I’ve been invited as a chair of Local Conference LC FF, yes, again AIESEC :)
On Friday (03.04.09) I went to Vlad’s BBQ Birthday Party (0ne of my colleague in DHL), party was great, martini as well :) I don’t know how I woke up on Saturday early morning, I guess my responsibility didn’t let me to sleep more :) but when I’ve been on the train on a way to Frankfurt, I realized that probably I forgot to wake my brain up and it was still sleeping at home. Everyone could say it was the worse condition to think out about whatever… you can just sleep :)
But I had to finish some task, usually it takes about 1 hour, but I come up with the great ideas in 3-4 min and just proceed during next 10 min and it was done, of course I slept after :) I’ve been surprised of myself.
Some other examples which come now to my mind when I’ve been very creative I’ve been always relax with good impressions at least about the day: I stated to experienced that and noticed during my MC term Estonia, when atmosphere in our team was enough relax and ideas just came up. I always had feeling and impressions that any situation is temporary and we’ll come to great solution. It worked perfectly. Sometimes now when my manager just specks loudly his thought and it’s not related my task directly I feel that I can do a correct comment and make a suggestion, just because it doesn’t stress or press me :). I’m so happy when I feel that.
I love that feeling.
As soon as I do practice to relax my mind and to build a great illusion in my mind I could notice more often and often I got a great ideas or good solutions :)
Although I have expressed a negative point with good illusions as well, sometimes when it’s too personal it’s become more as dreams and it’s difficult to get a line between dreams, illusions and intuition :)
It should come with a practice to build our own mind and thoughts.

One month past

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Sun, 29 Mar 2009 11:19:00 +0000

06.01.2009
5 weeks ago I left home, seems to be so short time, but life with full of events gives other perspective…I feel that past almost 1 year! I guess I changed or at least my thoughts :)
I’m setting my new life here in Germany. I can’t say that Bonn the best city in the world and I’ve been always dreaming to leave in, but as I like small capitals, ex capital might consider.

Why am I here? I got an internship in DHL Finance Freight headquarter office for one year! I work with Net working capital, cash management in different internal finance calculation and elaborations in all countries in Europe. I do a lot of analysis that I like very much. I found a lot of benefits to work in open space office, where during discussion you could learn a lot as well. People in my department are very divers and international, my manager from Colombia, predecessor from Mexico and the CFO from the Netherlands and I could continue the list….sometimes my task is challenging, but I like it, a lot of potential for development. Even DHL is the biggest logistic company in the world and I work with finance (quite strictly area) I feel that I have quite enough enterprises. In the begging I was afraid it but now I’d like to bring something new that pushing me study more about company, the field and specific knowledge of course. In Finance Freight department works majority man with great sense of humor. At work I feel as at comedy show. I feel that I’m quite serious at work and may be not natural :) but it’s good room for improvement.

My leaving condition is not perfect. I leave in old house together with one African France native speaker girl and with landlords. They’re a couple a men is almost 60th years old from Germany and his wife is young lady from Latino America (Spanish native speaker). She is a student. Any one excepting master of the house can’t speak English, so I almost can’t communicate with anyone we just smile to each other or in case show something by mimic as a monkey :)
My room is relatively big, I have even washing mashing in :) but as I recently found out that any longer can enter in my room when I’m out to do some washing … yep, how could you feel about it?… one cornet on the ceiling in my room seems to be quite wet. So far it doesn’t disturbing me so much; I am just not sure how healthy it’s to leave on such conditions. I decorated my room with some pictures & applications, so I like it. The most difficult issue for me in my apartment is lack of Internet connection. Yes, I have to accept that I’m FREAK of Internet!!! never thought that it’s so important in my life! Even I know that nothing happened with me and the world if I don’t check mail one or two days, but I feel dependent of internet, I guess it’s partly a horrible habit!!!
On the first week in office I haven’t had internet as well and I hold a personal record 4 days without internet and TV!!! Can you believe that I’m in Germany in one of the developed country in the world!!! :D My manager was making jokes about it one week more, especially when he printed some news for me in the morning :)
I have quite good transport connection to office and to the city center, shops, cinema, sport club and even theater… may be because before it was a district where were located embassies and lived ambassadors. Here still you could find a couple of embassies the poor countries, which couldn’t move to Berlin :)
The houses and residences around are so beautiful, quite old and not typical, that give special spirit to that part of Bonn. Every morning I enjoy the view walking to the bus stop (7-10 min). The sky and clouds are not so beautiful and big as in Estonia or Scandinavia, but I still love to admire the sky…
No matter of all that issues I’m facing but I like Bad Godesberg (the district in Bonn), even as soon as I got an opportunity to move to the city center I’ll do it!

My social life is fixing slowly. Some party, dinners, coffer, I do like it. Since next week I’m starting German lessons 2 times per week, found a sport club already I hope I’ll manage to go at least 3 times per week. Yesterday in one café I found a lot of promotions with different events in Bonn. So considering starting Tango lessons, at least try it and decide do I like it or not, even it’s a bit expensive for my budget so far, but I’d like to try and make my priority… Theaters, music concerts, opera, dance show in a plan already … so if people say that they’re bored, there’re boring! One more time come up with thought that you build your community which depending from whom you’re, how maturity you’re and what you’re looking for. I can’t say that I have new friends here already, but I feel quite comfortable, but definitely I have a very interesting people around, what I’m glad for.

One more time after life in Estonia rediscovered how to leave to my own life! To be just myself, behave and act as Inna Kostyuk, not at MC member, not as good doter or someone else, just be who I’m and love it simply.

So far I’ve visited Nadi’ka in Brussels already on Christmas… it was unexpected nice trip :) you couldn’t imagine that on the last moment I didn’t want to go to Brussels and how was difficult for me to buy a ticket, I have had a first cultural shock in Germany so far… but as usually I always like to spend some quality time with Nadya and great party as well :) I’ve been learning to cook Chinese dishes, need to practice… I’m glad that I came to Brussels :)

The New Year Eve I spent in Bonn, good dinner, nice farewells next to the river and party of course. It was a bit different but our life should be divers and colorful… so far all new thing I try to appreciate and to enjoy.

I miss my family very much; I guess I never missed them so much, even I don’t leave at home quite long time, but now its spatial feelings… I can’t describe even for myself, why do I miss them so much, if we talk almost every day and sending mails to each other often as well…or I really fell that I’m not a chilled anymore and just I responsible for my life and no one else…
And each year, day and time in the life are special….

Blogging again

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Sun, 29 Mar 2009 11:14:00 +0000

I was waiting that moment when I would feel to write again :)

I started a couple of time to write a story, thought and something stopped me, so let it be :)

I can’t continue blogging without dissemble about April and my long vacation.

Why April? From the first view nothing seriously happened, it was just one more wonderful month in my life! It was a month of memorable discovering, mental changes and enjoying moments. There were:

* In life we see a lot of paradigm as “when men loves a women” song by M.Bolton. Men usually do even impossible things to follow there feeling or wishes. Sometimes it’s dangerous just observe it from the outside! I’m not so young do not know that, but still…..

* “Run to your fears” by Robert Sharma. I had a couple of situations when I run for my fears. As natural for me most power feeling connected with sport. We wend to the last conference as MC of AIESEC Estonia and on post meeting our team decided to do rolling on s professional road. First challenge was to clime on by rollers (remarked I didn’t roll since childhood, but in past I just practice a bit, so I was almost new in!) usually when you’re on a top of hill is following things are descent, but I was on rollers & almost I couldn’t manage them :) so I did it! I rush to the fear! I rush down, almost all way I could manage successful till the last tern :) yes, I fall, what is logical, but I made that professional roller circle!!!! It was unforgettable feeling of winning, I won myself and I just started to manage myself on a speed. When you afraid just do it and you will satisfy of yourself. Simple to say, but difficult to step over the comfort zone!

Love that feeling.

* Orientation on a result. In out life we have done a lot of thing, which is not so important for us. Keeping working doesn’t mean a great success or right result! Doing right things + keep balance = result & internal happiness. Thanks to my team of AIESEC Estonia 2007-2008 for that great learning.

In general my year in Estonia was not like I expected, it was even better! I visited 12 countries for one year! In some places I was twice or thrice time. I started to realize a new mentality, I definitely become more open minded then I’ve been before :) I’m sure now that I like Scandinavian way of thinking, it’s not easiest or typical way of thinking always, may be there is a zest. I could live in Scandinavia (Copenhagen or Stockholm there are my two favorite places so far). I started appreciate my personal time very much. Sometimes I love to be a lone, what never happened before :)

don't think! Do it!

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 15:48:00 +0000

I didn't write here for awhile already! I guess it's time to do it.
I'm in some strange mode, actually it's not a mood, let's say strange feeling.... Everything is great, but I don't feel like...
I had a great weekend in Tallinn with friend of mine, really enjoyed our time :) I've been in Belgium at 8th of March, I always happy meeting my friends. As usually with Luka we had fun, starting from Latino night club and finishing Martiny nights :) with Nadi'ka we were waking around of Brussels. Even in rain weather she was so kind and we made a sightseeing :). I'd call our time in Brussels "quality more important than quantity" :)
I have a new interesting project in EXCEDEA, the investment infusions come very quickly in Ukraine, I'm proud of that I'm from Ukraine! (my play list on 40% consist of Ukrainian song :D)
We had MC days in the Forest, it was wonderful, I even didn't expect. 5 girls were growing together, pushing our mind work in topic which we preferred, it was new Marjam's technology after AOH! I'd like to go to Art of Hosting seminar too :) 2 days gave me more probably than some working week.
I enjoy my social and personal life, I feel freedom, finance independence and responsible for my decision. I'm traveling a lot. In my plan Vilnius - Kaunas (Synergy). Copenhagen - 60th years Anniversary, Stockholm - sightseeing with friend :)
I guess I determinate to go to internship after my term in MC Estonia. I have my EP form in myaiesec.net. I have a good XP in business sector, but I work usually in a SME sector, I think I miss XP in multinational company, after I can compeer and make final decision, what I like more...
I've been thinking that I have a passion, but now I'm not sure about it, I have some many reason, first of all I'd like to work with my strengths and to do work which is relevant, to have a meaningful job. I want to leave something. I can be a part of system, where nobody could see my job or to make a big step and do changes, new project etc. I have some though, which I even sometime don't want to accept! Why I'm afraid to do not typical steps for society? I'm becoming more rational and relational and I guess my eyes shine less and less, sometime I have feeling I'm losing my natural inner passion and beauty, becoming to person whom influent the society and life rules.... May be I'm afraid to come back home and just tell seriously that I'm going in Asia for 1 more year or going to USA on 5 year to sturdy or I have other opportunity in Europe and to get married is not in my plane for next year. What am I afraid????
In my mind some vision like in a movie or book, everyone wants it, everyone dreams about it. I guess my education and feeling post Soviet Union Countries that life should be beautiful and its matter of reaches. But if I we don't have meaning or value behind of it's boring....
I have pretty good life in Estonia, each area in my life I may say 4-5 balls... (from 5 balls) :)
"If we don't know what you'll lose you're not concentrate on." Good idea, but does it mean that we should also have a challenges?
I'm still dealing with my report, what is press me... But I'll manage, I don't have any option
I'm thinking about other education abrade, master or Ph.D. or MBA. But it's a lot of preparation, I have just start to do it.
Now the main question how to create a time for creativity, stop running.... It should be a something simple, just go to do massage, rest and create or I should visit more my favorite book cafeteria, where I can just rest looking though the window or looking at pictures...
I have to go to sport club, it should help to fresh my mind :)
I don't like my wondering feeling.

INNA YOU HAVE TO DECIDE, STOP THINKING & TALKING, PLEASE DO IT!
COME BACK TO INNER HAPPINESSES.
BELIEVE YOU CAN DO IT!!!

p.s. I didn't expect so many random ideas on a post :) Looking forward martyshki's reunion conversation. Thanks Marjam for your open mind nest and creativity, that you're present:D
p.ss. Going to cook :) I hope not just because I'd like to avoid a work, just because I'm hungry already, I'm human!

when I feel confused or frustrated ....

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Tue, 26 Feb 2008 08:43:00 +0000

Some time I have feeling than anyone can't understand me!
It can be one time per month :D or just cultural difference or some challenges.
what I usually do:
* Buying something nice for myself (not exactly shopping, I'm tired from it)
* Sleeping!!! (what I really miss, and I don't know at which weekend I can have a sleep it)
* Talking with friends whom I haven't seen long time (sometimes even they think on other way)
* Reading, but something what I can easily forgot later
* Meeting with people out of AIESEC (can do almost every day)
* Singing, Dancing and Smiling of course. (No comments :)

Today I'm going to clean flat, to cook some salad, to dance and to think, to think and to think! I should come to some ideas definitely!!! I'm really frustrated about my feeling... Why it can be simple? :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-onqH1nPfqY&feature=PlayList&p=AE147C51128B9B39&index=8

This is song helped me removed in previous week :)

The week of special moments

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Thu, 21 Feb 2008 09:08:00 +0000

I have been in Berlin on last weekend. I asked myself "how can I describe my trip in Berlin?"
I don't know do I like Berlin or not, this is a city which everyone should visit advisable! :) I guess better during Summer or Autumn, because Berlin has many parks and if you want to see the natural beauty of German's capital for sure that seasons are perfect for. I've been glad to meet some of my friends! I've been so satisfied that Lars and Anda cared about our sightseeing program, because as usually I haven't had time before to read a lot about Berlin, and all my preparation was in a plane from Tallinn to Berlin :) That city has a so huge city center, it's not possible just for one day just walk around. But we could manage to visit the more popular places :)

what I really couldn't accept personally it was "dirty feeling". I try to explain, what I mean, Berlin is city with a lot of graphites some of them looks like very attractive! but we used the city train and our trip took around or 30 min and I could see not just city center and other districts of city as well. In my memory it's graphites, some deserted places or factories. On Saturday evening we went home quite late and we meet on a train station a lot of young people, some of them were punk, some of the were just drank, some of them were just wired at least for me. That all gave me a "dirty" feeling. Although may be I'm just sensitive sometimes :)

But on a train we didn't lost time and always we were enjoying the conversation :) I may say some of our topics was unforeseen and unexpectable , but exciting for sure! I know that I'd like to come back in Berlin some day but in September or October :) I'd like to visit museums, which a lot of in Berlin, I'd like to know the social life, because in Berlin usually happens a lot of different events.

Some other moments which happened during last few days, that I discover I have one more friend :) This happens when you tell truth to person next to you. You're respect his/her opinion, his/her feeling and you're going to be more closer, because you know almost everything about each other!:) I've been thinking that I'm almost alone who prefer tell truth openly and sometimes I started to afraid doing it, but now I'm again so convince about that strengths :)

Strange meeting on a fly! I don't know how ofter do you get to know your neighbors in plane, somehow it always happens with me, even if I sleep or read or listen music :) on a way back to Tallinn, I met a middle-aged women, she was so open with kind smile and I felt that she wanted to talk to me, so latter everything moved in so interesting direction. She works in German audit company which has focus on NGO and she provide audit, education and training for finance responsible in NGO. We had dinner and did sightseeing in Tallinn, it was a please to talk to her about professional and personal topics. You know, sometimes you meet people and feel so freely to discuss almost everything, I like this feeling!!! I don't know how that recently meeting will influent on my life in future, but I have some new thought in my mind at that moment for sure...

my mind is changing ...

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Mon, 04 Feb 2008 21:23:00 +0000

I don't know how it's call correctly, but I can feel it. May be some of you know this feeling. I can compeer with cooking or swimming or ...
When you cook something really special, probably firstly and you don't know the taste, but for sure it'll be really delicious. You're tasting few times & it's a new taste always, because you added spicy or some new ingredient or just food is going to be ready.
Or when you learn swimming, it's difficult in the begging, but latter it's better and better, and you can swim even butterfly. And you just swim and enjoy the beautiful nature of see, the fabulous voice of ocean and the wonderful pictures of seabed.
I need time to think about the way I personal changed.
I need time again to review what is really important for me.
But anywhere I like this feeling, I see how challenges developing me. I like to observe this moment as well :)
And what I really appreciate that I'm enjoying all this changing now

Life is short,
Break the rules,
Forgive quickly,
Kiss slowly,
Love truly,
Laugh uncontrollably,
And never regret anything that made you smile.

My memories from 2007

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Sat, 19 Jan 2008 09:43:00 +0000

The New Year 2007 I was celebrating with my family in Sevastopol,

Ukraine

. Thanks my lovely family for great moment, for your support and love. I had a nice time with friends and relatives, now it’s just dream to meet them. But late in Kiev we had difficult, interesting & funny time. Difficult was one, because the work, a lot of work, one of the bright things in my memory from my MC term in

Ukraine

:) Interesting one it was because we made some difficult decision regarding future. And I guess from January we started to have more fun insight of team. Girls (Luka, Svetylka) I will not forget our “Kreshenskoe gadanie” (fortune telling). I don’t remember the result, but I remember that filling, Martini & Glintvein (Hot vine), oranges, Ukrainian chocolate and a lot of laughter!

The February was month when I put my SN form in Insight XP and the same time I had this feeling that I want more to do something in AIESEC, it took quite many time to make decision about MC international, thank you my MC team in Ukraine for helping me with conversation about my future.
There were sightsee in Kiev with Masha (Savranskaya), the Golden gate with “-12” or even colder :)! When we stated felling how worms the underground and even didn’t manage to go in café or restaurant. It was of the memorable for our event list ;)

The March, ha ha…, I remember just I was filling in different applications form, a lot of smart quotes everywhere, deep though etc. Of course, I remember the funny EB elections in Lvov. Even my trip to Lvov started without ticket in restaurant on the train, election process in Ukrainian langue and of course my favorite surname Dmiterco (I always sad Dmitrenko).
The second month of Spring I reaped the fruits of one's labor. I’ve been selected in MC Estonia, like MC VP Finance. I still remember this moment; I’ve been in SpringCo, during session I managed to pass interview, the test and pass the selection process. It was Friday afternoon, when I received the message from Marjam (my MCP) to the following effect: Dear, Inna you can find the result of election in your mail. Of course I had feeling that I haven’t been selected, but recently decided to check mail and I couldn’t believe the world: “The MC VP Finance AIESEC Estonia is Inna Kostyuk”, why I couldn’t believe, because I already thought that I wasn’t selected. It’s one of the best examples when people don’t know information making the decision and how assumptions influent on our decision.

The May I could call "the last meeting” month. I’ve been in Ukraine, but I started to miss already my family, friends and especially girls from MC Ukraine. I had the last meeting before my trip in Estonia with friends in Sevastopol, may be they even didn’t feel like this, because I already have been quite far away from them, the last walk in Kiev with Masha aka Luka, Svetylya aka Muza & Mashylka aka Pingvinchik. We had a lot of conversation about future about past what I really value in our friendship relationship.
The June, my new adventures in new country, with new people and with other culture (I may say even it’s so close by Ukraine, but the cultures different for sure I felled, I guess it’s more attitude of people). It was month of analyzing the previous XP and future life, review my goals and planes. Thank you the Lars Indermo, who agreed to be my mentor. From the beginning I started feel myself in Estonia like normal person who have work, personal life and should have fun and relax, this feeling I totally forgot in MC Ukraine :) Although I’m so grateful for my XP in Kiev, it was of the difficult, professional and stressful year.

The July was one of the significant months for myFamily, my sister getting married :) at that moment I made sure again that everything have a reason, because If I was selected in some other country I couldn’t manage to be on my sister’s wedding!:)
The few months in Estonia I could describe PARY, EVENTS, FESTIVALS and new life philosophy for me. Why new one? I really started to feel why important to care about myself, about my health and why I should love myself so much. During summer I was running at least 4 days per week, I woke up early, because the sun and sky in the morning are beautiful and I have a nice view from my window on 4^th flow.
I even can’t account how many party and even I’ve visited. The more memorable were: Song & Dance festival, the middle some on a Saarrema, AIESEC Birthday, what was so surprise for me (sport exercises, talking with alumni, games, some competitions and just freely conversation with everyone doesn’t matter alumni, member or MC, everything is simple)! Thank you to everyone who helped me to realize it.
The August, one of the bright even in AIESEC life is International Congress, in this year it was in Turkey. I guess it was my last IC, it was attractive. I met people whom I know before, I met my friends, whom I was missing, and we had a nice talking with Masha & Sveta; some interesting conversation with Deniss and Marjam. I guess I didn’t build network so much, I think I just invested in network which I have had before and I just enjoyed the life :)

The September was on of the difficult month in last year. I’m already afraid the reintegration time. I’ve been at home, in Ukraine. Something what I was dreaming about, I had the visa issue and I could come in Estonia till in the end of September, but when you know this exactly you can mange it, but when you every day expect that your documents will come, it’s so difficult. I couldn’t work normally, in the same time my team mates had the hot period. I felled lost, upset, and disappointed, when I’ve been far away, but I learn for sure, doesn’t meter where’re are, how important what are you doing.
In October I’ve come back in Estonia, Tallinn, I’ve been so happy to back to my apartment to see finally our new office in the city center. I met some challenges in my work, but in general I continued enjoying the life here. I made my trip plan and bought the tickets to Prague and Brussels.

The last month of Autumn I can call it like “traveling month”. I had the great finance weekend in Parnu, amazing and useful Finance meeting in Warsaw, and the marvelous weekend in Vilnius. Thank you my friend, Tadas, for your hospitality, I felt myself like at home when somebody care about me :) It first time when I felt as network really works.

And I’ve been selected as a FACI at LDS in Italy; it was my first international FACI XP. It was please to work with MC Italy, with don’t worry people without stressful situation and just enjoy the time and learn from it. Milan, Catania, Syracuse and Etna, it was fantastic time, new culture, hot and caring people. Of course I’ve been joyed to meet Mashylka and we had a few great talks but I’m also grateful the Stefano from Bacony University, who has been my guide in Milano, with whom we had a funny time, did sightsee, visited the night club and of course the Italian dinner with vine :)
And the last month of 2007, the December was one more month of adventures. I remember again trips between LCs, a lot of parties, almost every day of some working weeks and creasy Christmas preparations. I didn’t feel it, but it was interesting to observe when everybody likes creasy with present to parents, friends and relatives. I think it’s something similarly like we do before NY :) the cities in Estonia was decorating so much, I guess like other European cities.

I had not typical Catholic Christmas. I was celebrating that Catholic Christmas with girl from Germany. I haven’t met the Andrea before this December, but as usually the AIESECers she is interesting person and I had again the cultural discovering. Thank you Andrea, that you pushed me to visit some interesting places in Tallinn, for interesting conversation and funny time.

I had one of the work hard months in Estonia, but I motivated myself to have one of the best professional XP after finance report.

In the end of month I deep felled how I miss my family! And my sister made a great surprise for all of us before NY, she got born the baby and I become aunt! In that important moment I wanted even change my ticket to Prague on ticket to Sevastopol and spend at least 1 day with my family… But I convince myself what I’ll meet my friends in Prague, whom I miss so much and we’ll have a lot of fun, conversation and parties.

And the New Year Night was just Fabulous, Friendly and Funny.
I guess the year will be the same, although the challenges just help to feel a happiness.

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Fri, 11 Jan 2008 17:25:00 +0000

Итак... Ты - солнечный ангел

Привет! Знай, после смерти ты станешь ангелом солнца...Это создания света, радости и счастья. ты будешь дарить людям любовь, детей и смех, будешь оберегать их от несчастий...Ты сделаешь этот Мир лучше. Ты - Ангел Солнца!! Ангел света, любви, счастья, радости и улыбок... После дождя ты будешь создавать радуги-мосты, и летать по ночам между мятных звезд, и ловить их, чтобы они не упали...Будешь дарить людям надежду, утешать... Лишь будь тем, кто ты на самом деле...

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2007 in Pictures

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Thu, 10 Jan 2008 11:41:00 +0000

My Italian adventures during trips

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Sun, 02 Dec 2007 19:30:00 +0000

My advantages were starting in

Estonia

. when I’ve been selected the FACI at LDS I’ve cold to Embassy and fount out that I can not receive visa early then at 16^th of November, because the ambassador had vacation, in ideal I have to fly the 17^th of November of 18^th in the morning.

Some of you know how many documents you have to prepare for Schengen visa. Till Friday (16^th of November) I had now ideas will I come or not, on this day AIESEC Estonia had one of the bright events in Tartu, it’s the Panka (official party with pancake). It was week when I tested my luck :). At 2 p.m. Friday I’ve got the visa and at 3 p.m. I and Marjam (my MCP) were in a bus to Tartu. Do you remember you feeling after great party? :) And after party I had to a meeting, to trip to Tallinn, a shopping, to package my luggage and to go to Riga at midnight, because on Sunday morning I had plane from Riga to Milan. In Milan I had to change plane to Catania. I have been sure that 2 hours in one airport defiantly enough to do it! Ha…Ha…

it wasn’t :)

My 1 fly was late just on 20 min, late I found out that I have to change terminal (around of 10 min by bus) but the main challenge was to find the bus stop to Terminal2, especially when people don’t speck in English….So as result I’ve been for 15 min before plane departure, but they keep out me ://// I had to change plane and the cheapest was on Monday morning, I have had a hard time in airport, I spend one night there… Oh, Malpensa! But I wasn't alone :)

You know Italy is extremely expensive country, but airport one of the more expensive places everywhere…

5 min in internet – 1 EUR (public terminal)

Glace of juice – 3 EUR

In the same time my roaming didn’t work, I had now ideas why… OC, FACI everyone was calling me, but they couldn’t reach me. Later they said me, Masha’s speech: guys don’t worry, she couldn’t lose, she could have problems with visa or luggage, but when she solved it, she will find way. :)
So at 9a.m.on Monday (19^th of November) finally I’ve been in Catania and Masha welcomed me!

The story of LDS is coming soon….

My trip adventures was continues :)

After great conference in Catania, study tour and few days in Milan I felt really tiered, but satisfied. I had my plane from Milan on Friday, at 30^th of November, during dinner on Thursday Mateo told me that tomorrow in Milan the drivers of public transport have strike and it could be difficult getting to airport and taxi is so expensive (120 EUR).

At Thursday night MC Italy and me have been invited on party in Old Fasion, so one more great party and trip on next day, its remind me something :) I woke up so early in the morning and I’ve been on that time in Malpensa for 2,5 hours :) but now they decided to change time of flying because they can’t be sure that everyone could come on time for strike in Milan….

Again my lovely airport is Malpensa. I was starting afraid that I spend one more night in airport there, but I spend just 5-6 hours during day, it’s nothing compeer with night :) the prices didn’t amazed me anymore also:) so in Riga I’ve been around 8p.m. the MC Latvia was starting nervous, because I asked the to host me in case I miss bus to Tallinn. I’m sorry that so many people were thinking about me and I couldn’t contact them.

As usually I had to wait my bus, just 2 hours, it was so easy :) I have come back in Tallinn at 5 o’clock in the morning. It was early Saturday morning, but city center was animated, people were just finishing party and walking around, Estonian can’t stop to amazing me. (so cold and they were walking so early or late…) I come in cold weather again, snow and freeze, it tocks one day to adept to frost in Tallinn.

It was great trip and I have learnt a lot. I had time to read and to think, something I miss it.

Do just right things!

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Sun, 04 Nov 2007 18:07:00 +0000

Probably I`m not one person in the world who work very effective when just don`t have time. What about other time? Do I work just effective or not effective at all? My teammates told me that I`m good organize and can manage all things very well. Is it just random opinions or truth? On the other hand I do right things, strategic important and relevant things, probably not all the time :)

So my learning point from previous week: Do just right things.

In the next week I´m following this principle and I hope I will find enough time to rest as well. We´ll see result soon:) Although it can be challenge, because I´m going to Poland at "Fummit" and Lithuania to meet my friend. :)

p.s. I had great "Finance weekend" in Panru, thanks my finance people and Mari for nice time together, you can find picture here.

Is crazy time coming or did I lose a focus?

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Wed, 31 Oct 2007 01:36:00 +0000

My priorities for week are average the 30 hours from 35 working hours. It means that I have to stay more in office or cut part of my work. On the same time I can’t postpone anything.
Accounting
“Finance weekend”
LC visit
Strategic development (Investment strategy & Pricing)
Next week is going to be the same, probably all November as well.
Did I make mistakes or may be I’m very ambition? Yes, I’m. But I shouldn’t lose a focus on my goals. Some of them are personal effectiveness and work-life balance. I try booking all my evening (sightseeing, meeting, walking, salsa lessons, etc.) but sometime I still spend a lot of time on office in the evening.
Is it Slavic culture or bad habit to work a lot? Probably, I have to do something in different way!

"Thinking - Power - Create - Mind - Feeling - Focus"
Rhonda Byrne

Energy 2007

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Wed, 31 Oct 2007 01:00:00 +0000

It was my first Baltic conference;
It was my first conference with members AIESEC in Estonia;
It was my first commission with LC VPs Finance from Baltic countries :)

Thank you LC Tallinn for nice trip to Tartu. You know, AIESECers in different countries, with different culture do the same things during trips :)
More pictures you can find here.

What makes you happy?

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Tue, 16 Oct 2007 18:18:00 +0000

Today was a quite typical day. I had a very good mood, although for my colleagues it's usual to see me funny, energetic and dynamic :)
I was working at home alone, because my lap top has some problems with wireless in office. I was alone during lunch & dinner. I wanted to think about something not regarding work or AIESEC stuff and I was listening one book.
Accidentally, some times ago I found part of audio book in Russian in my book folder. I don't know who is author, who calls this book, but I like listening to it. One of the learning point is that you have to write down:
* Your feeling, ideas, emotions etc, because it helps you to structure your thoughts.
* For what you are grateful and thankful for day, week and things what happened with you etc., because it helps to have a positive mood and enjoy the life every moment. It’s something from positive psychology.
During my lunch, dinner & trip to salsa lesson I was thinking about positive things what happened with me and after some concludes I again realized that I'm happy :) But I want to know more :) In the end of day I was thinking about what makes me happy?
Some ideas come to my mind and I decided to write these down:
Happy people around me
To meet my friends & parents
To achieve goals
To leave a legacy
To love and to be love
To buy presents :)
To read magazine/books when sun raises and touch your face in the morning
To make something special
To dance & smile :)
To walk in the fores
To run and swim in the morning
To watch a sun set
To work effective
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My impressions about Estonia

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Sun, 14 Oct 2007 19:12:00 +0000

My term started in MC Estonia from June. I’ve worked more than 4 months, but I have’t been so much time in Estonia…..despite this I had enough time to realize and discover a lot. Expect this post to be a long one.

1. Weather.

Cold, rainy & windy all year!
Sometimes I remember very sunny days, but there were just a few .When I was preparing for transition I asked my predecessor about the weather for the next week and her answer was: “The weather is unpredictable, as usually”. I’ve already convinced myself about this during my trip from the MC apartment to the MC office in the city center, around 30 min by trolleybus. In the same day, on my way to the office, it rained two times and latter the sun appeared
During the summer, in the evening, I always took a jacket or something with me. In June I was wearing a sweater & in October I’m wearing a winter coat :). Yesterday & today the weather was extremely cold and windy, around 3-7 degrees Celsius. I think the weather is very cold for me because I’m born in Crimea :), but I’m trying to adapt.
During rainy days people are usually lazy, so when it rains during the week, the weather is influencing a lot on my mood, emotions and wishes. During November I expect to have daylight around 4 hours a day.
But in the same time I like to obverse how clouds are moving fast, like time.

2. People
They are like the weather 
They are very interesting. People usually don’t smile if they don’t know you, but they are very polite. They prefer casual clothes and healthy life style. They create many parties, but “short time” party, till 11p.m.  they don’t drink so much, but they have 80% vodka as national drink. I have never seen Estonian people hurrying up. They just enjoy life.
In Estonia live around 70% Estonians, 25% Russians and other ethnicities. You can usually meet Russians in the Eastern part of Estonia and sometimes in Tallinn. In other cities there’s an exception to meet them.
They’re not opened at all. I think it’s a challenge to find friends in Estonia.

Women
On the streets you can always meet blondes.
In Ukraine girls try to be blonde, change the color, in Estonia they like to color their hair brown or dark. They like to feel comfortable and usually don’t like high-heeled shoes. So the local people can see that I’m a foreigner. One more thing which impressed me in the beginning was the fact that they don’t use make up or don’t put so much like Ukrainian or Russian women. The guys don’t like women with a lot of make up.
They’re very independent. They can, by themselves, put together different pieces of furniture, they all the time care about their luggage and they pay for themselves in cafés, they usually don’t ask help from the guys.
After my life in Kiev this didn’t amaze me anymore, but when I’ve came back to Sevastopol, my friends called me “independent women from Europe" 

Men
Colder then the weather 
In Estonia men are more stylish, many of them wear glasses. Usually they talk slowly and they are quite shy. They would never get to know on streets or other public places, except night clubs. In order to express their feelings, they should be drank. Last night I’ve been again in one of those night clubs. I’ve discovered Estonian guys from new sight  “Hot Estonian Guys”, after some glasses of alcohol (beer or cocktails).
Actually I don’t know many Estonian men. Those whom I’ve met already are intelligent and sporty, healthy and modest. From the daily journey with the bus in Tallinn I remember usually Russian people, because they are not polite or they drink.
It’s one of the bad impressions about Russian people. Unfortunately I don’t know any interesting Russian people, I think they live in Estonia as well, but from the streets you remember just horrible things.

3. Estonian life style
Relax, don’t hurry up and enjoy the life.
I’ve never met people who are running on the streets. In the end of the week people prefer to finish their job around 4 or 5 p.m. During the weekends usually people go to the country side, quite often with family or alone; many of them don’t like noisy weekends.
In Tallinn people don’t work so late in the evening like in Kiev, they’re not that creasy.
They like to travel, this is not the richest country in the world, but people enjoy life in every moment.
One more thing which I admire a lot about Estonians it’s the fact that they really care about their health. Despite age, sex or work, people like to run, to skiing, to cycle, to walk or visit a sport club. They prefer just healthy food. If they should choose between fried & boiled potatoes, they will choose the boiled ones, because they are healthier. They also care about concentration degree of Es. They read all the time the composition of products.
Estonians are proud of their country. Despite the political discrepancies and the people differences, especially after the Orange revolution, I understood, in Estonia, what it means to live in a common country, work for yourself and achieve what you want, enjoying life in the same time.
Estonians are really attached to their nationality; you can especially feel it on huge events, festivals or concerts.

4. Country part of Global Internet community.
One of the Estonian economy benefits are for sure strong electronics and telecommunications sectors. You can find every thing in internet and many things you can mange just with your ID card (bank account, bus monthly tickets, report to tax office etc.). Sometimes it’s difficult to change your habits and to start ordering clothes through internet, but it helps to save time as well. Many companies prefer to work through internet. I could order a repairment in internet. The schedule for buses or trolleybuses can easily be found in internet as well.
I see a lot of benefits, but sometime is very strange to register to hairdresser on-line 

5. AIESEC
Hmmmmmm
For an international member every new AIESEC country is different. I’m not an exception. I discovered a new AIESEC. The members of AIESEC in Estonia have usually studies at university, work, sport activities and sometimes other hobbies or courses. Like typical Estonian people, they care about life balance. They try to find time for personal life as well.
Maybe AIESEC members are not so strong in the theoretical part, but they are goal oriented for sure. They created a scorecard which is really needed for Estonia, they want to do an impact in the society, but they have a different way.

6. Sea
In Kiev I realized how important is for me to live near the sea, how much I love the sea, the sunset and swimming. But I have swum just in the Black sea. I discover how I don’t like sandy beaches, when you should go around 200 metros if you want to swim. But all coasts in Estonia are sandy beaches, so during summer I’ve swum just 1 time if it can call a swimming 
The sunset is very beautiful in the same time.

After all my impressions about life in Estonia I came to the conclusion that I like a lot of things in this country and that this is a significant & unforgettable experience for me.
I like it very much!

What colour is your soul:)

noreply@blogger.com (Inna Kostyuk) — Mon, 08 Oct 2007 18:54:00 +0000

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