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I feel like writing....
may be it will help to sort out all my thought...feeling...wishes....dreams...and take me to the next stage, where I am be happy, fully enjoying the life and make a contribution :)

Did I mention, that I love my life? :) I LOVE LIFE!
I love everything what is happening, I like to make my life, I love all my challenges, I love people around, I am pleased to share my thoughts, ideas, feelings, energy etc I try to make my life and follow my dreams...but often people in some point stop to make there life and follow the rules, society, management etc...sometimes I feel that I do the same, then suddenly I wake up, because I feel something badgering me insight!!! Thanks Got, I have curiosity :)

I'm finishing my internship in 3 weeks, I thought I would know for sure that is next and I have expected that my life will follow some typical logic, expected steps, at list will start since now :)but would I be happy to know everything in advance??? :) ha ha :) Looking on my past I defiantly must admit I've been always taking challenging roads, made not easy decision and took some risky steps. I have never regret for that, moreover I am even very grateful for all things which happened or didn't happened.
So far I am following the strategy know the direction, follow your instinct, make the best of everything, share your happinesses and things just start happening! I don't want to be attach to the result or place even try don't be attach people (not easy). So far I feel confided and happy about it.

I guess now I am a bit frustrated, because for 5 month actively searching for my next step I still confused about my wishes or goals for next year....not years... just for one year! I tend to think to much sometimes :) asking myself to much questions etc, what is not bad, I have to just accepted it :) I like that I am not distracted by rejection or non result achievement, I know it will come, it's a mater of time. I am lost between roads...
I'm lost where to go, what do I really LOVE to do, should I follow my heard or my mind, logic or long-term strategy...but at list I know what I don't want to do :)))

Place:
The World is to small and I wish to leave in each continent during next 4-5 years... I'm willing to go and to try, to see, to learn, to travel, to discover, to explore, to share and wish to make the difference! Wish to find the way how I can use my strength, knowledge and ability to do something relevant and to make others happy.

Do what you love to do:
Fully believe that if we do what we are really good at, what we love to do, the world/population will be much happy and more kind! I know things which I can do and I can successes! But I want to wake up happy in the morning, because I'm going to do an amazing job everyday, job which make the difference, not just average job which I can do...I wish to find or always be able to discover new things and to be very satisfied with things which I do everyday, stretch myself for the best and enjoy it.
I wish to be happy coming back home, because I have my close people at home (partner, children) who are waiting for me. Wish to share my love, energy, thought with them.

I guess everyone want/wish to have love, but often people don't like to tell it, to express it, to share. In our days sometimes we're hyper active, too social, but quite lonely on the same time, especially in megalopolises. Quantity would never cover the quality. We prefer to share our achievement in business life and forgot to mention, that the best moment of the day actually was 5 min conversation with the partner, children or parents :) It's probably easy don't share anything personal you kind of keep cool and pretend that you don't need it, but everybody needs it :) Everyone needs it, doesn't mater the gender, race, age, culture, preferences, sexual orientation etc, we need just face it.

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Find balance:
when you mind, heard and soul tell you 3 different things, any meditation can't help :)
should I go for money and accept a job offer...should I follow for the best experience and take a risk and go to Asia to explore...or should I follow my heard, probably take even bigger risk and take a challenge, but make sure that I make the best of my life...???...right now I even can't hear my intuition...I am too much questioning my self, I guess I should learn how to let it go :)
I've tried to look on that as a case, which need to be solved and present from different perspective :)

World wide view:
Where do I want to be, What do I want to do, how my life will look like in 10 - 20 -30 -40 year? How our world would look like in 20-50 years? Which role we are going to have in such busy and technology developed world? Which action we should make now to leave on a better planet latter? What is really mater?

Taking to consideration world issue like climate changes and Global warming, population grows and financial crisis, technology development and speed of our life I guess it's more and more difficult to predict the future. Some scientists said: "The word culaps will happen in 2029", calculation has been done base on speed of technology development and distraction of the planet. Some of the them predict the world end in 2012. I just feel it's more difficult to adapt to new technology, changes on every day life, a lot of information around and don't get crazy with all this things.
Without any concert action climate changes can bring so many destruction and catastrophe which will effect economic for sure. In competitive environment population which have had a chance study do that and focusing very much on a career, on the same time I guess gap between well educated and uneducated people is going to increase significantly. Personally thinking that education is one of the key to solve some issues or at list to help developed or performed poor country/regions.
From economical point of view we can see clear that for last 10 years all finance from US and most EU moved significantly to Asia. Now Asia plays a very big role as a world builder. Any developed country wouldn't let easily to share there finance, so I assume that politics and leaders of the country will spent a lot of energy and attention for protection or fighting for resources and territory.
I guess 3th sector (NGOs) can play a very big roll in new world. Social enterprising is one of the key to make a real difference! Personally I become more and more attractive to it. To be a leader, to really lead, you don't need a MBA in leadership, you can just do it. Thinking that a lot grows and development in poor and developing countries can be done by NGO and social projects, by inspiring people with right ideas and needs of education.
The gap between poor and rich people will increase (probably that tendency we can see always in our history as well), but managing is going to be not by police/army how it was before, but by technology or medicine (diseases, epidemics etc). The richest part will be more mobile, well study, well travel, well read, may be even partly supports there health by new technology. In such dynamic and stressful world people can become more and more machine. On the same time some people can't follow the standard, the creativity, outstanding ideas, brave personality would values very much. It has had never been easy to be special and find understanding from populace although it's one of the way to make changes. If it's so easy, then everyone can do it :)

Then I had part related to long-term goals, feelings, wishes etc... but
Reading my post since begging I have realized how it's important for me to write down, even may be not so logical or in order, but at list it's a good self-reflection moment. I got some inspiration back and I know that sometimes to be lost between roads is not bad :) just important to know the final destination and keep happy journey;)

Actually I like challenging moments, because it makes me stronger, it pushes me to thinking out, used all creativity and discover something new :)

You have to stretch yourself before you grow up, move to the next level! :)